Γουινέα: Ταξιδιωτικός οδηγός, βίζες και δωρεάν διαμονή · 2026

Rravik15 Ιουν 2009Διάβασμα

LIFE FLOWS I started reading a new book by Irvin Yalom, 'Staring at the Sun: Overcoming the Terror of Death.' Yalom is mind-blowing. He is magnificent! Yesterday at work, I was angry at myself. Sometimes I talk like a hypocrite. Who am I to make premature conclusions?! Now it is obvious that even at 'Mavericks' there are decent people. After a month of work, things are starting to get concrete. By the way, besides Kalita (stress on the second syllable)—the beautiful manager I mentioned earlier—I now like another girl from the 'dancers.' I don't understand where this comes from: when I like a woman, all words disappear, I don't know what to say. I usually feel stupid because of this. And I like them often. 'A woman is a miracle. And a gift.' Who said: 'Man is God and creator, and woman is Goddess and keeper'? I gradually came to this thought, which grew into a conviction. I won't shout about it in the middle of the street and convince everyone. It is enough to believe and feel. A person is a powerful source of energy. Our dreams have the potential to come true. Sometimes it seems to me that waves are starting to ripple out from me. Or rather, as if I myself am a wave, just spreading from the center in a circle. I am an energy cluster. An amazing feeling. And I didn't feel this in myself much before. I couldn't hold onto the energy for long. When a person meets their soulmate, their energies unite and the flow becomes more powerful—that's obvious. I finished reading 'The Bridge Across Forever' by Richard Bach the day before yesterday. Often people don't believe that such a level of relationship is possible. In his book, Bach talks about himself, his views, meeting his future wife, and much of what happened to them afterward without embellishment. For me, this is a book that extends a bridge to all of us, saying, 'You ask: if love exists, show us at least one couple who lives happily?! Okay, we'll tell you about us! After all, we are that couple!' A question I have never answered in my posts before: WHAT DO I WANT FROM LIFE? WHY DID I END UP IN AFRICA? Actually, this characterizes me to some extent. I don't like 'tested and tried.' Well, like America or Europe, in the case of travel. I want to be a pioneer, or almost one. If I knew of the existence of such a place on earth where no human foot had yet stepped—there is no doubt, almost certainly, I would want to go there. For roughly the same reason that I am here, I want to visit Australia, New Zealand, and New Guinea. Go somewhere in Asia. Vitka (a friend) is very attracted to everything Asian. So, I'm thinking about it too. By the way, I hope he will also be here in January—he will come to rest and visit. I think it will be great! Overall, regarding travel, I want to say that it is worth... traveling, seeing, FEELING. And as a 'final point' for me—a flight into space, from which I would get such a shake-up that I could say to myself afterward: well, that's it, Syom! You can go home now. And what is home? Seventy percent of it is we ourselves. Another twenty percent is the people surrounding us. And only ten percent is a specific place. But all of this is very, very important! Yes, and I also want to answer the question... WHO AM I? It always seems immodest, indecent, and too presumptuous to say that I am a writer. And a psychologist. Moreover, quite a good one. My tongue doesn't turn to say that. Besides, it's awkward and one could be subjected to serious criticism for this, even by oneself. But this is THE ONLY thing I can do (at least somehow), that I like, and in which I want to move and improve. And I dream, at least, of getting money for my literature. And since things haven't worked out with book royalties yet, I have to be 'somewhere in between' all the time. Desires and possibilities, for example. I'm terribly tired of working as who knows what all the time and doing all sorts of boring things. I don't want to delve into and spend a lot of time on things that don't inter